It's Day Three...

..and still no chocolates. I'm begining to get grumpy. hahaha =]
I just got home from my job trial..... It was good... aparently I will get a call later....I'm crossing my fingers.
So my course finishes 13 weeks last thursday!!!!!! how exciting!!! although I'm not looking forward to the 3500 word minimun disertation I have to write in 3 weeks time. I've been trying to think about what I could do it on.....I have no fucking idea.
Yesterday I bought some long socks with bows on... they're so cute. I imagine Orchid will like them alot =]
Wearing them now.... and I look like an anime character!!! ha.... meeting the girls later for lunch then we're going the vintage fair...EXCITED! I love vintage fairs..... although I bet everything will be a MILLION pounds and I won't be able to afford anything.
I'm going to cook a pizza and watch wife swap.... thats a good idea.

Byex

Theif

Rupert stole and ate all my bag of my favorite chocolates. I bought them as a treat for myself  and now they are all in his belly. =[ . Not impressed. He has promised that a new bag will be present and correct tomorrow though. They bladdy well be.
Today I had photography at college. It was wank.
I spent the day just messing about in the mac suite.... as it now has internet. Score. And just generally was the best student on the whole course. Ha. Not.
Today I assisted Tasha in booking her tattoo at Evolution. And then spent the rest of the day trying to disuade myself out of the idea of another tattoo. I WANT ONE SO BAD. But it's not a good idea. I will be murdered by the Madre...... tbh though..... I think it might happen.
I got a lovely phonecall from a lovely man at Taylors Deli in town today.... I have an interview at Fasta Pasta in the covered market on Saturday =] I have a genuinly good feeling about this as all they want is a Saturday girl....

AKA me. =]

Tomorrow I have my first day of 3D. I'm reckoning that it will be as boring as hell... and I wont know know whats going on as I will have just joined. It can't be worse than fashion though.

You know what I need....?
I need to fucking sleep, my friend. I need to sleep because I AM. The ultimate cool kid. haha I might re-christen myself that as I say it so often haha. It is obvious that I need to sleep as I am swearing my arse off.

Night all, Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite...... MWAHAHHA =]

Oh! also.... I've noticed that my blog views have been going up by like,... 15ish a day.... who the fuck is looking at my blog?! I only have 9 followers...

XO

Strawberries and Cream

Procrastination and a good camera = this

I'm trying so hard to get on with work,... I have it all layed out infront of me.... I suppose that's a start..?

oooowwwww and I have to go to town to get my daddy a birthday present ...this work will never be done.

I've been listening to Trouble by Nevershoutnever. It's stuck in my head so bad! I don't really like Nevershoutnever but this song is really catchy!

Today I feel really odd. Really... disparing.... but I have no idea why!

Dreading college tomorrow. Really, I should be thankful for this extra day off. I want more tattoos. I want to be covered head to toe. If only it was acceptable,..... When I'm a famous artist and I have all the respect in the world then it will be acceptable.

Untill then I will just have to wait. Wait for my tattoos, my dream house, my horse, my awesome car, my 3 children and the money. You know, I don't even want money. I just want to be free to do whatever and not go to college, or university..... just to get into work now. But again, this is an unexceptable idea. I don't want to have to wait for 6 odd years untill I get everything. I want it now! haha

The only flaw in my famous artist, plan is that actually, I'm bollocks at art! But shhhhh, don't tell anyone.... I'll keep bluffing it untill someone notices.....

Hasta XO

P.S. where the hell did that all come from? I guess I have a lot more on my mind than I thought.....Jokes.

Elixir

SO.

The last few days have been action packed. On Wednesday Rupert and I went to town in the evening and met Olly (oh and I got my hair done in the morning FOR FREE at Mahogany so now it's nice and red again =]) annndddd we went to St Peters with him and chilled out, listened to 80's disco then went to the Bubbly bar. We came home, made a cake for my Auntie who we were visiting the next day then went to bed. That was a fairly ordanary day really. The next day was thursday, we went to my Auntie's house to visit the cousins and grandparents etc. The cake went down a storm! it was so effing good! Go us =] In the evening I had a job interview at a hotel which tbh isn't worth talking about I cba. Annnnddd we got a text from Ruperts parents saying that they had gotten home from wales earlier than they had expected so would we like to go straight away??..... we decided it would be a nice idea so hopped on a train and 2 hours later we were at Ruperts in hertfordshire.
It was so nice to be with Ruperts family again, after spending almost every single weekend in the summer there and not seeing them for about 2 months I realised how I missed them. The kids were allowed to stay up late untill we got there so we saw them and after being bombarded with stories and cuddles they went to bed and we had a family style dinner... and dinner is always very good at the Flint Cahan household. 
Next day we went to Camden and I bought sone red tartan short shorts anddddd a tshirt and an earing and a scarf. Friday in Camden was actually a really nice day! afterwards we went into Hertford and had a pint the the pub where Ruperts friend, Bam works. Then we went home, had another huge yummy dinner and played Mario Kart untill 4am with Jojo (the slightly younger brother).
I was absolutely shattered the next day as we had to leave the house at 11am because Suze was driving us back to Oxford.... the seven of us had lunch in pizza express and then looked round the shops etc. It was such a good couple days! Last night we went out to the PT with the "gang" haha I'm so cool. Rupert and I got home at like,... 2am but sat and talked and had jokes in my kitchen untill 4 =] then we went to bed and didn't get up untill 2pm today haha
Love is such a lovely thing.
I've missed my girls. I don't even know what will happen when we all go to uni. =[
I miss the Flint Cahans too.
Oh well.
It's my bed time and I need to do so much work tomorrow it's unreal!

Sometimes it looks like things are on the up.... I hope it stays this way.
XO

It's A Right Royal Rave

I just lost the game. And so did Rupert.
Today has been boring really... I was ment to be going the the Brazilian with Carmen today but we missed eachother due to phone technicalities. So instead I went to the theory test centre with the boy and waited while he did it - he passed obvously.
Then we went to Pat Val with Orchid and ate lots of double chocolate cake. Which was nice, by this time tho, I had gotten into that sleepy state of the day and was basically a zombie untill I woke up just now.
I feel pretty crap tbh. but there isn't a real reason for it. Just having a quiet day.
Tomorrow I have nothing planned, I will probaby end up cleaning my room and then Ruperts room out of boredom, then watching a million hours of Jezza K.
I wish my life was more exciting,
We (Rupert and I) are going to stay with his famfam on friday, I'm so excited. I miss his family, and the kids are off school too =]
I'm trying to not do work so much hah. It probably was a bad idea for Rupert to buy me that book for valentines day. I will just end up reading that all week instead of working, oops.

Hastax

Rupert got me "Her Fearful Symmetry" for Valentine's day. A book I've wanted for ages! yay =]

=]

He is biking today, and I'm waiting for my Grandparents to come. I have so much work to do! but don't have to be in college untill next Tuesday =] life is good, apart from not having a job or hearing from Hertfordshire, Wimbledon or LCF yet.

Oh well, Can't win all the time

Happy Chinese New Year guys.
x

Home

I am home! And to warn you now, this is going to be a very long post =]
Where to start? one week ago I guess.
So, lasty Saturday night / Sunday morning we all met at college to catch our coach to Gatwick. Everyone was so energetic but as soon as we set off we were all asleep. Woke up at Gatwick, mulled around for a while in Cafe Nero then caught our flight, Slept really akwardly on the fold out trays and 3 and a bit hours later we were in Morocco. We got off the plane and instantly we were instanty hit by a wall of heat. It was gorgeous. Blue skys, mountains and heat. Then we caught the coach to the hotel, ran around and generally annoyed the other guests untill dinner... then went in to the main square at night to sample the night life.

 Wow. It was mental, because obviously we had no idea what to do in this situation... men shouting at us, children trying to grab us, and make us buy crap off them. Children fighting in the street over an orange to sell, Crazy people, monkeys on leads doing back flips, shakes in the street, cats EVERYWHERE. Intense is the word.
The second day we went to the mountains and visited the berber villages which was beautiful. There was a cafe at the end of a rickity old bridge so we sat there and painted the mountains and drank mint tea.

after the mountains we went to the souks, basically its like camden but smelly, dirty, ridiculously cheep and is as big as half of Marrakech.

Did a bit of shopping then went back to the hotel and chilled, slept, had dinner then went for a midnight dangle in the pool with the girls.
The next day (Tuesday) we went to the museum of Marrakech which was.... basically a big room with nothing in it? ... I mean, it was beautiful. But it didn't tell me anything about Marrakech...

????? Museum?? I think not.

After this we went to the second part of the museum,.... an empty old boarding school. Again.... museum? I think not, but this place was amazingly beautiful with carved walls and lots of beautiful old windows.

after this we walked back through the Souks to get to the hotel and this was the begining of a very eventful night.... basically, after reciving a phonecall from Emma (the head of course) in Melissas room where we were having a party.... We fled because Emma told us that security were coming to search the room and chuck us out, and we would have to pay a 1000dh fine- about £80 (little did we know that Emma was just pissing about and there was no security, no fine, nothing.) as we were running.... we happend to stumble upon the door to the roof......

It was amazing! we climbed up and sat up there for a good half hour... there was about 15 of us. and just as we were coming down we heard radios. Fuck. (this is when we still though that security were looking for us) for some reason, instead of running DOWN to the stairs..... we decided we could hide better if we climbed UP. hahah. not a good idea. we hid behind this massive concrete block and we saw security find 3 of our other friends and grab them and escort them down ( aparently security was in a circle formation around them as they came down in the lift.... which I find hilarious =] we hid for another 20 minitues or so then Chris made a break for it and ran down the ladder and to the stair-well. As I looked over the wall, I saw a huge Moroccan man all in black grab hold of him and two more come up the ladder to where me and Arron still were. Anyway, we were taken down stairs and sat in the lobby at 3am while they tried to find staff that spoke English. Cue the escape... Chris pretended to get a phonecall and walked in to the corridor where the stairs were and then told me and arron that the person needed t talk to us. HA. stupid security. We legged it up to Chris' room and then I went to look for Tasha who had been escorted down in the lift with the rest. She was in a right state because after ages of telling security that she thought Moroccans slept on the roof she was let go, but a man from the hotel made a copy of our room key and followed her up, and refused to leave untill she fell asleep... or something because it "wasn't safe". We locked the door, double locked the door, pushed our beds together and hoped he wouldn't come back.

Woke up about 4 hours later for breakfast then went to Essaouira which was about a 3 hour drive away but it was lovely. So much cleaner and nicer and more quaint than Marrakech. As soon as we got there we had a fish platter lunch which was bloody amazing. there was shrimp, king prawns, mackerel, squid, something, something else and something with teeth still in.....chips. salad, and bread all for 5odh each! - £4 =]

Oh and I held a Spider Crab..... which I didn't know was alive untill it started stroking me!

I did the majority of my shopping there, bought a nice satchel made of camel and bought Ruperts valentines presents there. I got him a berber pipe and a hand carved, silver and camel bone berber knife.

In the evening after we got back me and tash made a den in our room.... but then the cleaners took it down the next day. It was amazng. We slept in it and everything.

On thursday we went to the Marjorelle Gardens which is like a memorial for Yves St Larrent (which I can't spell) It was very Moroccan. But tbh. Just loads of plants.

After the Marjorelle Gardens it was back to the hotel for lunch, a nap and as it was the hottest day so far... the pool.

As you can see, the majority of people were doing work, whereas we were just chillin' poolstyleee =]

The tutors had arranged a dinner and party in the evening in the most beautiful and romantic place I have ever seen in my life. With belly dancers and everything. One of the belly dancers asked me to dance with her infrond of everyone but there was no way I would do that because she was GORGEOUS and half naked and shaking everywhere whereas I had had 4 hours sleep and felt sick from the tajine. hahha.

Then there was the surprise party in a club which was also beautiful, there were free cocktails, men with fire, shisha, music, cigars, and these CRAZY men in gold mirror suits with green lazers dancing for us......It was the most sureal thing ever. No one had hardly any idea what they were doing...... but it was hilarious.

The next day, was our last day..... we went to the square and the Souks to do some last minute shopping and saw the tutors and stayed with them for a bit then we saw this man making wood things with his feet! He gave Paul (my tutor) a lucky charm necklace which Paul then gave to me.

Then we went and had lunch in the cutest little cafe trying its best to be English but failing epically! On our way back to the hotel for the final time, Lucy made friends with a Chameleon and then we got a Horse and carrage back.

The flight home was one of the mose pleasent flights I've experienced. And when I got home home at 2am, I was ready to collapse after dragging my suitcase up the stairs and giving my mum and dad their presents etc .....

I got into my room and turned my light on to find a vase full of pink and white lillys, a bottle of white chocolate liquor and a box of "I love you" chocolates from Rupert.

=]

Rupert moved in on wednesday.... and its valentines day tomorrow....and I'm home for the coolest place I've ever been to.

So happy.

XO

Is it me or has the rate of domestic murders in England gone up considerably lately? My homepage is aol news and when you go on it you get 6 headlines.... normally it's crap like "Peter Andre admits he uses hair gel" or something stupid. But the last month or so almost every headline has been like: "Fathers body found 200 meters from murderd famly" I mean....what the hell is going on? why do people have to kill eachother? I sound like an idiot saying this I know, but if people were properly educated and knew how to comunicate and direct their feelings properly then maybe things like this wouldn't happen. This is ME saying this tho. ME, the girl who has no idea how to express herself. Wenever I need to say something important it always comes out wrong and I end up sounding like a dick. I always sound angry and sarcastic and mean and bitchy. I'm actually really sick of it but tbh I have no idea how to say things differntly to how I do now. I suppose I will have to go through my like upsetting people every day just because I don't know how to show my thoughts. Oh the life of an artist hahahahaha. No, but seriously, I think it's starting to become a real problem. I know I shouldn't blame my flaw on anyone but I guess it's because my parents are also like this too. Especially my mum. Because she grew up in a deaf school she wasn't really taught about tones of voice etc... mainly because they were just focusing on teaching how to sign and lip-read etc. I suppose I've just grown up learning from my mum how to act (just like every other kid). Having deaf parents is for the most part really fun...and everyone thinks its really cool haha. I can't imagine not having deaf parents. Not signing at home seems like the strangest concept in the world!
ANYWAY enough about that. Off to Marakech tonight =] literally so excited. This is the most exciting place I will have ever been to. I checked the weather report and aparently it's 25 degrees when we get there, 27 the next day, 22 the day after.... wow. And there's a pool! and 3 bars! and one of them is a jazz bar!!!!! Literally will be spending every night in the jazz bar. Don't you hate the feeling when you know something really big and exciting is coming and the day goes SO. SLOWLY.  Can't wait to get away. Oxford is doing my head in. Its mostly the thought of not being at college. Even though this is a college trip.... Its still not.. college... if that makes sense. The week after I get back, Rupert has taken the whole week off  and he's moving in =] yay! I am no longer scared of this anymore.... just really happy and excited and just GLAD that its all happening.
Carmen is coming over today to look for her passport. If she doesn't find it then she is most likely to get thrown out of the country. Shit. I don't know what I would do if Carmen was sent to Chile. That would more than suck!
Things I have to do today....... go through my suitcase, check that I have everything.... fix my shoes, change my bed covers, hoover,... thats about it I guess.
Might not blog for a while... I don't know how widely internet use is in Marakech. But when I can, I will, untill then,
Hasta x
P.S. I'm making spag bol as we speak. I'm excited. Also, jsut realised that I'm guuna look like the ultimate cool kid on the plane with my Manga horror book and my Nintendo DS. haha. x

I feel so much better.
I just withdrew my application from Westminster.
I know it's really bad doing it the day before... but I just had to. I emailed all the people I had to email and tried to be really polite etc. I'm just dreading seeing Paul (my tutor) tomorrow. He is going to be so annoyed at me. I feel really bad as well actually because everyone I spoke to about it told me I would be stupid to turn down the interview. Everyone apart from my Grandmother and Tasha and Rupert. Tbh. The people whos judgement I really trust are my Grandmother and Rupert... and my parents but they aren't home right now. People who were giving me the advise to go to it anyway, were only telling me that because it's the right thing to do I guess. But It's not what I want. And being happy comes first.
Argh anyway. This now means that I save £60, ALOT of stress and I don't miss the Marakech briefing tomorrow. I wanna go to town soon before the antiques market shuts at 3. I have to buy jeans and sun oil... and go to the bank to put money in before I'm offically overdrawn.
Omg my fish! they are either suicidal and trying to kill themselves or they are trying to escape and kill me! so aggressive!
My interview at Hertfordshire yday went as expected. I think I got a place but who knows huh. I thought I had the job at shakeaway but I didn't.
My life is great isn't it.
Morroco soon though, =] it will be nice to get away!
I just had a fried sandwhich. It was GOOOOD.
x

HappySunshineClub

:)
Weeeee
Portfolio thing with tutors went really well! All I have to do now is get some photos printed professionally and I'm all done =]
EMA bonus comes on thursday... so today I went shopping.
I haven't shopped in sooooo long!!!! It was great!!! I now own the most amazing coat in the whole world from Zara.

Isn't it gorgeous?! =]

Rupert and I have just got home from the closing down night at Videosyncratic. It was so funny. We got 6 DVDs, including the Basquiat movie (COUGH ORCHID) and I bought 2 graphic novels =]  I had to barter with the man and I felt so bad for them after reading their farewell message on their website that I just couldn't bare to try and get them any cheaper than £10. But tbh. my bartering skills are shockingly bad. Like, really really shit. I'm quite sad that they have gone broke. It was such a cool kooky little place. and they were always so lovely!! =[ Read the farewell here.

My manga books are so cool tho. I wanted to get some comics.....as obviously I am the ultimate cool kid.... but nothing really caught my eye.

I'm really happy today..... mainly because I'm now completely stress-free... untill wednesday. Ha!

ANNDD I'm probably seeing Orchid on friday which is AWESOME.

I had something else to say but I don't remember...huh.

Scuplture tomorrow. Joy. Bleugh.

XOXOX

OH! I remember! Rupert found some GHDs in the bin at work and they didn't work and so he bought them home and my daddy fixed them and now they work!! yay =]

XO