Bed please.

I am literally the most tired girl in the whole of London.
I swear to god it's not an exaggeration. London is draining every last bit of energy I have.
On the plus side I've had a well good day.
We had a tour of the backstage area and the workshops of the National Theatre, which was really damn cool!! we saw people making props and the set and we got to watch the technical rehersal of hamlet (the opening night is in a few days time) I'm so excited about everything. It was amazing to see things being made, anndd there were like 3 people there who were ex students of my course. Working there full time! It was so cool.
Then I went to the freshers fair. Personally I thought it was really good but I know alot of other people didn't enjoy it. I got so much free stuff as well. Like an Urban Outfitters goodie bag which had a purse, washbag and some nai lvarnish in it. I love the purse. It's like black leather with flowers embroidered on it. What elese did I get...? Oh some free makeup (blue eye shaddow) and a que jump card for club Koko!! SWEET!
I actually have so much to say but I'm so tired.
I managed to get a return ticket home on the train for £7.60!!!!!!!!! This made me so happy yesterday! So I'll be home this Friday and then back on Saturday and I think Tasha is coming to stay on Saturday which will be good!
Tomorrow is the first freshers evening at Debut under London Bridge. I have a ticket but dont know if I can be arsed to go tbh. All my flat mates are going to the end of freshers party at Koko on sunday instead of tomorrow. meh oh well. dunmatter.

My goodies

And this is me being tired. Ha.
Oh yeah I nearly forgot... I joined the netball team... I wanted to join the cheerleading team but I was too embarassed and plus they were all really annoying and netball is fun and you kinda look like a cheerleader in the netball outfit........ I was good at netball in school.
Oh!!! and I forgot too.. I joined the life drawing society because its really cheap. £10 a term... It works out at £1 per session. Fuck yeah!

 Night all xOXOXOX x

Beugh. The last 2 days have been awful. Yesterday I had to finally say goodbye to my parents - which was horrid. My dad drove me and Rupert to the bus station in Oxford which is about a 20 minute drive from my house. I cried all the way there but I don't think neither my dad or Rupert noticed. I don't know what came over me at all... I don't think I even knew why I was crying. Anyways I got out of the car and my dad gives me the biggest hug and tells me to be careful etc... he left and Rupert and I waited for the coach to London. As soon as I got on the coach I just burst into tears and Rupert spent the rest of the journey trying to make me laugh - which was really nice.... he's very good at that. So then we got to my flat and we had a party for Rupert's birthday (which is today), and he went home today.
We spent most of today in bed watching the whole new series of Waterloo Road. It's sucha shit ridiculous program, but so addictive!! I walked Rupert to the tube station and then we spent about 15 min saying goodbye.... trying to leave... and failing... but eventually we left eachother successfully and it was just the biggest slap in the face ever. It was like the universe was like "HELLO! Look. You're alone now. In this HUGE city. BY YOURSELF." I camt back to my flat and just sat in my room and sulked. I have literally never ever felt this isolated. Even though there are all these fabulous people around me, and everyone is so lovely and kind and supportive of eachother - it still doesn't make me feel better. I went to the kitchen and a few of the girls were watching something on a laptop... I just made dinner and sat down, but I tryed so bloody hard to be upbeat... I don't think it worked though.
I think I've had a shit day because today was the day that it hit me. WTF am I doing in London? I LIVE here now. I moved out. No friends or family around... nothing. what?! Why am I doing this? I really don't understand my own thought process.
ajgakl Tomorrow is my first day and I'm bricking it.
I'm in the worst mood. I just want to be at home. With people who love me.
Argh.
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Holga!

I got my pictures back from the developers and I'm quite pleased with them.... considering that I had no idea what I was doing and it was my first go. I learnt alot from it as well. Half the pictures I took didn't even come out but I think I know what I did wrong in all of them. I've scanned them in so here they are:

This was at Aldgate East tube station outside my halls in london.

This is my FAVOURITE. I didnt think this picture would come out because it was really dark and I used my fisheye lense. But I love it!

This was a complete accident.. I went to Manchester the week before I went out for dinner with Tasha and I forgot to wind the film on.. hah I like that we look like ghosts =] The next one down is from the Oxford fair but it came out really rubbish and yeah,,... probably my least favorite.

 An alleyway off Brick Lane in LDN where my halls are.

My favorite place in Oxford. The steeple of Exeter College and the Antony Gormley sculpture.




















Right, I'm off to sainsburys to buy wine.
Blog more tomorrow... I'm quite proud of myself.
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