It looks like I've FINALLY snapped out of my horrendous mood.
I got a haircut today and  think its the best I've ever had.

Going to an exhibition tonight, Carms and Tasha should be coming over later and I've been conned into shaving Tasha's undercut... bleugh haha.
Then we're off to the Jam Factory for the exhibition then to the bar... for many beers.
HUZZAH
XO

master manipulation

Happy New Year folks!
I have nothing to say apart from i've been grumpy for about 6 days now.... which is ridiculous!!!
Gawwwwwwwwwwwd
New years resolutions: Work, because its actually worth something now.. this isnt school, or college. This is uni.. where im being seen constantly by industry professionals.
And 2: Work really hard to be happy. Stop being pesimistic because it's bringing everyone down around me.
I spent Boxing day untill the eve of New Year's Eve at Ruperts with his family it was really nice!! and then Went to London for NYE which was ok, then on a random jaunt to Portsmouth which.... well... wasn't great tbh. but kinda nice at the same time.
Got back today and I'm fuckin' shattered. Just want to sleep. but I need to do LOADS of work..
oh well.
I'm starting to go insane... need to go back to London before I hate everyone.... hahah. No, it's not that bad I just need space.

FUCKIN OPTIMISM

Here goes
XO

Hello guys and gals,
I would have blogged but it wouldn't have been worth it... I haven't done anything apart from mope all week... soooooooooooooooooo sick of having to go to work in the freezing cold for 6 hours a day then coming home and spending hours trying to warm up and then just falling asleep until I have to go back to work again.
BAH. I LOVE the Christmas period... honestly, I love snow and giving presents to people and mulled wine and fairy lights etc. but I can't stand Christmas day.... and it's getting closer and closer and I just really can't be arsed. I'm really sorry I'm moaning yet again, but I've just been in a foul mood the last few days and I don't want to tell anyone about it because it would just bore them. BAH.
Bring on the new year.... this year was awful. The only high points were getting into the course (and uni) of my dreams and the way I've changed as a person has been really good. I suppose that's due to the shit bits though,...family dying, friends moving to the other side of the world, being slapped round the face with my own love, having to move and be alone in a huge city etc. TBH I mean, obviously I wish none of it had happened but I've come good from it... it sounds really gay and cliche, but I did learn alot from it and by god have I grown up alot over the last year!!! Hopefully in the new year there won't be any hiccups... I really hope so, going to try and make sure that everything runs smoothly. aaannddd!! in 8 months time I will have my own bloody house with some lovely ladies. How exciting.

Ah. new tat coming soon guys, I'm really excited but really nervous... I can't wait to get it but I just KNOW that it will cause trouble between my parents and I. I'm nearly 20 for Christ's sake and they can't control me forever (which is what I keep telling myself) - not that they were ever controlling anyway!! I think my parents are probably the most relaxed I know. But I do understand where they are coming from... I'm SO different to anyone else in my family.... in my family everyone leaves school and gets a job at 18, or they set up their own  business. They are all kinda chavvy - a posh type of chav... kinda like Katie Price but with morals right? Whereas me?... I'm a purple lipstick wearing, tattooed, artsy fartsy, first person in the family to go to uni etc. I know I will always be their daughter and they will always love me and be proud of me no matter what but I think they are worried that I'm ruining myself by getting piercings and tattoos etc But it is only because they are not fully in tune with current popular culture.
I'm gunna get it because I am my own person, but I just don't want to offend or even embarrass them!!
Oh well, I'll update you on how it goes... and I'll post loads of pictures too!! =] I need to post a picture of myself soon... haven't done that in a while! Talking of posting pictures! - This cheerd me up no end when I came home from work today:

Took this picture on the way home... Oxford is beautiful in the snow =]

XOXO

P.S. I'll be more positive in the next post. Promise =] x

Xmas shopping was mighty successful yesterday!!

Gunna go out and try and find me this outfit^^ Its beautifulll.
XOXO

Death Note: What's My Name?

So I've had a really shitty day, it's been just so annoying...I woke up this morning and just didn't want to go to work so badly that the whole way to work I was just building myself up and making myself more and more annoyed about going to work. Then I got to work and it was fucking freezzzzingggg. Which, may I add, is illegal!!! I'm so close to phoning...trading standards..??? and just getting them in shit. Anyway, then I had like 3 fuck-arsed customers who to be honest just took the piss. It's those people who are so obnoxious and narcissistic and get some kind of power trip from getting you to do things, then re do them then changing their mind.... all while they have a smug look on their face and you can see that they are really enjoying you working to serve them. Argh.
Pfft. Rant over.

I'm really missing being creative at the moment. I have an injenious idea on how to get really cute and presonalised xmas presents for people that cost hardly anything!! I would spill the beans but there's at least 2 of you who are getting one so I can't ruin it!! =]
I have the next 2 days off from work thankkkk god!!!! I think I would go insane if I didn't. I finally am allowed to look nice for a few days rather than wearing a big blue fleece, no make-up and being covered in olive oil all day. I can wear real clothes yay!
This girl came into the shop today with the PERFECT coat. It was beautiful!!!! but I couldn't ask her where it was from as I was busy....so I'm going to scour the high st online stores and try and find it....aha

This makes me jelous. A) she has a beautiful dress B) she's beautiful C) she's in the coolest place ever!!!!!

DAMN

OX

Right!
Some pictures from James' paint party...

I was so lovely. It was like being at school again!! Having all my old friends in the same room at the same time, listening to music and.....just being happy and intoxicated haha.
The top photo is beautiful Tasha... with her new hair that I can't stand! (she knows this, so it's ok!)
Work was good yesterday, but SO COLD. you cannot imagin!! I swear it's illegal to make people work all day when it's like, minus2.
I've had such a brainstorm on what to give people for xmas today... I would tell y'all but a couple people who follow me will be getting one...
I'm so excited!! I can't wait to make them all =]]

XO

BamBam

Im home, in my pajamas, in my bed, watching the flinstones movie on me tv. AND  I don't have to move for a month. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeee
I start work tomorrow at 8.30am. OUCH. and I have a new boss... I hope he likes me!!!
I would tell you about my weekend but being comfy is distracting me...
I would show you photos from the last two nights but cba with getting out of bed.
Im so happy.
<3 xxxxxx

FREE

Now  that I have no work to do and no uni to go to....and I'm not going home untill Sunday.. I was freakishly bored today and decded to make a dress out of a size 18 vintage dress that I picked up in Camden for A POUND! Its not very interesting... but it's cute! ha.

I apologise for my roots, they're being sorted when I get back to Ox. I'm going darker baby, darrrkerrr... maybe even black!!!

XO

snow =]

Yay its snowing! I had a really really nive weekend with the boy. we went to the winter fair at hyde park and listened to a jazz band in the street for about and hour... and he bought me a rose. how nice. hahahah
im slightly going insame as i havent slept in a while... 3 deadlines in a week an a half so yeah... been working my arse off!! nearly finished though. just hope i actually pass them and dont get refered and fail!! wah!
here are some pictures as i cant talk anymore from lack of sleep x

Oxford st last saturday... lotttsss of people.

 Snow!!! its so snowy that you cant see the skyscrapers =]

 This is what i spent all of last night doing and its a piece of shit. my character design for lady madaline of usher.

I Must Admit I'm a Fruit Loop, Frankenstien With A Screw Lose

Some pictures of my outfit from the Wadham Queer Fest

It was soooo fun. There are more picture of facebook....
I can't wait till xmas... I got my job back at Fasta Pasta so I'll have money again!!! yayay
I have so much to do today and no time to write about it..
I've fannied about too much already this morning... watched Jeremy Kyle and did my nails.

Off to the British Library I go =]

OX

ZUP

WORK

Is driving me insane. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
ahahha
this is what I'm doing atm
Trying to do it quickly as poss but its already taken 15 min waaaaaah gunna be up all night!!!!!

I think I fancy the one at top left
haha













Night darls x

FAce HEavy

Uni just feels like its part time... something I do inbetween seeing my friends and family and going out. Its like I do uni to earn time with my loved ones. I hope it becomes fun soon. I mean... I love the practical side of my course! and when I'm in London, the only time I'm happy is when I'm in the studio making something or going out with the girls in the flat. But the actual WORK side of the course is already killing me. Although, I've finally started to get my head around it all and I've made bloody good progress tonight. I love how I look like a fuckin art student when I'm in my overalls hahah it's like my dream come true.

God bless you Zane Lowe for getting me out of my 3 day long shitty mood. You do know how to cheer me up (Y)

I am so in love with Frankie from Lip service. I'de do her any day. She's so fit. hahhaha. I'm literally addicted to this series!!! There better be a second, because it's so addictive. It's completely ridiculous but isn't everything else?!

Well, thats me for the night.... off to hunt the web for images that "inspire me"... what bullshit hahahah

Wanna wear this:

Adios XO0

Halloween Pictures.... FINALLY

Finally, 3 days after Halloween we are over our horrific hangover!!! and the pictures have emerged!
Here are my favorites:

<3 I love my flatmates.
Oh and I dyed my hair and got extensions too haha look

YAY

I cba to blog. I have nothing exciting to say really apart from I have so much freaking work to do and for the last 4/5 days I've been eating everything in sight and now I feel gross.
Bleugh.
XO

It's impssible to let go of the only thing in the world that makes you truely happy.