Why do I have the sneeky feeling that everyone else is having so much more fun than me this summer?!
I think it's because I'm being really sensible.... and I'm very aware of it. I'm just working and working and working =[ My hours were cut last week and I went to work this morning and they have been cut again. So instead of me working 4 full days a week... now I will work 4/5 hours 3 days a week. FML. Man, I need money! I just don't know what to doooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I'm still really ill, I struggled today at work I just wanted to be in bed.
I took my Holga out and did a few snaps, but a few of them I took twice because I realised that I hadn't set all the things properly... It's just because I'm so used to digital cameras doing all the work for me.
Using my holga has made me realise that digital cameras are so rubbish! you can't be proud of a digital picture because you didn't do anything! the camera does it all for you in the milliseconds before the shutter button is pressed. With a REAL camera you have to make sure you get the focus/exposure/apature/filter etc right or the end product will be shit. I can really feel myself getting into this whole marlarky.
There is one thing that I really need to do, and thats read my Svankmajer book. It looks really boring! but I think I will learn a hell of alot from it which will help me so much next year.
Pleaaaaaaaaaaseee watch this svankmajer video! It's really good =]
XO
Saturday 31 July 2010
Snot
Friday 30 July 2010
Bleeuuugh Rupert and I are really ill =[ hes worse than I am though.
I think this is carma for calling in sick 2 days ago.
lddglkgj
Wednesday 28 July 2010
Welll boy am I hanging today! It was Tasha's birthday yesterday and I drank FAR too much... but only because there were people there who owed me drinks and they all happened to have money on them... I was hammered... I counted it up this morning and I had 8 shots and 2 glasses of wine. Fuck.
I think I'm only just getting over it and its like 10pm the next day!
Anyway, I apologise if this doesn't make any sense but that is why. I called in sick for work today. It was only at Monsoon though so I think it was ok... my last shift there in on friday and tbh, for the whole of july I've only had 4 days off... you know, with have 3 jobs and working 2 of them, both with overtime. I get paid on friday and then a week later on the saturday from Taylors thennn a second time for my overtime at Monsoon the week after that! I need to move some money around so I don't end up spending it all! I don't know if I mentioned but I moved some money from my savings to my normal account so I could buy a Mac. I found a really good deal on amazon for the more expensive Mac book pro. It was cheaper than the not so good Mac on the Apple website by about £200 and it was being sold by Amazon so it wasn't dodgy. I was thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis close to buying it but then I found out that the software package was £600. SIX. HUNDRED. POUNDS. The only reason for me buying a mac was so I could use that software. FML. Why don't I have a rich stepfather or uncle to buy me things?!
But yeah, I need to transfer that money back so I don't spend it.
All I've eaten today is breadsticks and noodles. I really want some muller rice... I think that will be my next step.
A couple of posts ago I mentioned that I hadn't gone 2 weeks without drinking some kind of alcohol every day since I left college.... I was starting to feel like absolute arse water (ooo what a lovely adjective. Makes me a bit sick in my mouth) so I stopped and now I feel a million times better and from drinking alot I put on like half a stone so thats all gone too... thank god. I was starting to look well gross.
After I called in sick today I went to town (Stupidly) which is the number one worst thing to do when you've just called in sick. I think it was fine though... I don't think anyone saw me. The reason I was in town was because I went to see Toy Story 3 with Tasha.
IT WAS AMAZING.
I think it's the best film I've seen all year. It's so good! I can't believe it's a kids film.... I don't think any kids would understand it! It's so funny as welll obviously because it's 8 years on from when Andy was little and its so funny how buster turned into a really fat old dog etc. I think the film is aimed at the kids who watched the original toy story when they were children AKA me.
I love it. I really want to see it again!
Im going to go eat muller rice now. I suddenly got bored of blogging.
I have a day off tomorrow..... it will be spent watching JK and Trisha and making cushions for my friends. I will blog again then.
Adios x
Thursday 22 July 2010
Veggimeatarian?
I have work in 2 and a half hours... I don't really know what to do untill then.. think about more tattoos I guess=] hahahha Im so gay. I realy want just onnneee more (which is what I said about the last 2) haha. andddd I think I will make some mushroom burgers =] yumyumyum.. I think im secretly a vegitarian now... who eats meat.... I dunno really, I used to eat meat twice a day without fail... and I learnt abit about the meat industry and I didn't really agree with how they treat farmers and how they feed animals drugs to make them have more meat on them. Even though this doesn't happen in England it happens all over europe and we have lots of imported meat from europe plus most food companies use european meat because its cheaper. Anyway, I thought about it and decided I didn't like it, so I cut down on meat and started eating veggie... I'm SO into veggie food it's insane! but I still eat meat like, once every...other week or something? and now I don't eat big chunks of meat unless its chicken or fish.
It's quite bad actually...... I watched a documentary about tuna farming in japan... and yeah I know its in japan... but it was awful. Tuna is one of my most favorite foods ever. and the Japanese fishing corporation (or whatever its called) had gotten I think 12 other countries (including the carribean islands) to help them in their effort to kill the whales that eat the tuna... which is ridiculous. Oh god. Im not even going to start. If you want to know more then watch The Cove. Its a great docu-film. I have so much admiration for Ric O'Barry.
Anyway, my point was.... that now I don't want to eat tuna either!!! gaaawwwd!
XO
P.S. yay! a thunderstorm just appeared out of nowhere!!! it's LOVELY =]
P.P.S. Boooo I have to walk to work in it.
I Don't Care, Because You Whisper Too Loud For Me
Well heyyyyy
I'm trying to find Christina Aguilera'ss album on Limewire but it's not really working... I was just on her website and I do believe she is literally the most beautiful woman in the world... I mean sure, she's probably airbrushed but her facial features are so perfect. I'm so totally jelous. But not in a bad way... in a I'm really happy for you that you're so hot but I wish I was too way....
Anyway when I got back I bought loads of vintage clothes off ebay and a dress and a top off Urban Outfitters... I have no money. But still I spend it. What is wrong with me!?
Hahaha the post man just came to my door and he's had a parcel for me for the last 3 days running, and every day I always come down in my pajamas and with my hair in a bun on the top of my head, no makeup etc... he just laughs at me and makes comments about how I'm keeping him busy. Anyway,
MY HOLGA CAME =] LFHSJGDKFJKL ITS SO COOL and the fish eye lense came as well WHICH IS AWESOME.... I just had a little play mid blog... as you can see in the pictures...
This is me taking a picture of my holga through my fish eye lense:
Thursday 15 July 2010
I don't really have anything to say apart from I just bought a Holga. I'm so excited. But now I need to buy film.
I went to work today and it was fucking awful. I was hanging harrrdd because I went out for dinner yesterday with some girls from work... who I absolutely lovvve! But I ened up taking my french 32 year old boss to the Purple Turtle untill 2am.... It was hilarious because she was in a red top with dangly earings, sparkly eye shaddow and some black stelleto, workplace style shoes... everyone else had pierced faces with band t-shirts on and dancing to rock. hahah she was so out of place but I love her for it.... you could tell that everyone in there was like whooo the fuck is this?!
I broke the screen on my Blackberry. Bad. Times.
When me and Rupert were coming home last night he thought it would be really funny to spin me round and make me run... of course... being terribly wasted I just went BAM. Straight into the floor, falling onto my bag and cracking my compact and cracking my phone...
Great one.
Anyway today has been nice, I had work 10 - 2 at Monsoon and it was eventful... I didn't believe the stories about the sale customers being violent....untill today. Jokes. Oh and a little girl weed herself in front of me. On the only carpeted part of the whole fucking shop! ha.
I went and got a pasty afterwards and it was amazing, then I came come at like 3? watched Jeremy Kyle, fell asleep, and woke up at about 7.30 when Rupert got home from work. THEN I cooked dinner for us which was amaaazing! It was so good.
Orchid is going away for basically 2 months... and we are both busy untill she goes,,,I think Im going to drive over tomorrow at like 9pm and see her for like an hour because thats the only time we are both free untill she goes! GAH! I will miss her so much.
But on the bright side, this is pretty cool... My foot is on the Evolution website!
http://www.evolutiontattoo.co.uk/MainPage.php?section=Artists&Artist=6&curPage=1&imageID=253
wooowooooo
XO
Monday 12 July 2010
WARNING: Long Post
OH Lord! I've had such a jam packed couple of days! There was a car V motorbike crash right in front of me, and it was horrific!!!!!! I was driving along happily and then this fucking STUPID girl just drove into a learner biker.... she didn't even hit him.... she drove straight through him. His exhaust flew off into someones garden... he flew into the air and went flying into the car in front smashing through the back windscreen. The top half of his body was inside the back of the car and then it flopped out and rolled into the other side of the road. I just sat there and was like fuck, fuck, fuck..... fuck. and then ran out of the car and it was so awful. His head was stretched back and his eyes were huge but his pupils were so small I thought he didn't have any. His shoulder was basically behind his neck and his elbow was bent the other way. To see someone in that way was just.... oh so unnatural. It was like looking at something that repulsed you but was actually pretty interesting. I started talking to him (well, shouting at him) and he was just in some kind of weird flinchy trance but he came round and by this point a woman had come out of her house with some ice for his elbow and shoulder and the girl who hit him was on the side of the road... (not offering help, but I suppose she was just scared... she was only a year or two older than me) and when he came round I called the police and ambulance service. They gave lots of advice and were really calming and arrived within minutes. He was on I think.. I talked to him to make use he didn't go unconscious and his name was Luke, he was 17 and on the way to work at Pizza Hut. I asked him if I could call anyone for him and he told me to call his work and tell them he would be late... I was like, Luke, you're not going to work, you're going to the hospital ok? you've just been hit by a car. He was very sweet and I called his sister for him but she didn't answer so I left the most awful message.. I just didn't know what to say!!! Anyway when the police came I gave a statement and I wanted to go to the hospital with him because he was alone but I thought it was best not to get involved. I left and went to bed. The next day was my birthday and it was SOOOOOOOO GOOOOODDD! I put up a gazebo in the back garden by the river and had lots of people round.. they organised a surprise for me and my friend did fire tricks while my cake was delivered in a wheelbarrow hahaha =] I adore my friends =]
Rupert bought me a sailor hat and literally I think its the best thing Ive ever had. I LOVE IT. and wore it all night!!!! There was a very amusing incident with the neighbours where they were discriminate towards my parents and all hell broke loose between them and my guests .... it was HILARIOUS! but I think you kinda had to be there so I wont tell the story...
Sunday 4 July 2010
You know, I have no idea why I blog... I blog as if I have loads of followers.... but I don't.
It's just like me talking to myself but on another level.... and it's boring too.
Solaire
Well heyyyyy
Went punting the other day with the college lot for the last time ever. It was so. fucking. funny. I literally have never EVER gone punting like that before..... it started off really lovely and calm and pleasant. Ended with being drunk, loosing our punter to another punt because he was in the water being a 'motor' for it.... Fran trying to row with a broken umbrella and an empty vodka bottle, Lucy AND Melissa falling in...obviously this means that Melissa just HAD to take all her clothes off and wring them out basically naked on the front of the punt....we all got absolutely soaked, Lewis the print teacher helpfully bought water pistols and it got way out of hand... it ended with everyone having umbrellas out and fighting across 6 punts. it was so. good.
I've met some of the best people on the Art fda course. I really hope we all stay in touch and that that wasn't the last time I saw them all. I will seriously miss all the banter and the in jokes that have accumulated over the year and the SCOOPING. hah. The tutors as well are the best tutors I have ever had... they were so helpful and insightful and full of encouragement. Not to mention they all drank like god knows what.
I came home from punting and even though I had had the best time!... I was so. sad. I can't believe it's over and I don't want it to be over... even though as a year we didn't all speek to each other... I think we were the best year ever.
