Bed please.

I am literally the most tired girl in the whole of London.
I swear to god it's not an exaggeration. London is draining every last bit of energy I have.
On the plus side I've had a well good day.
We had a tour of the backstage area and the workshops of the National Theatre, which was really damn cool!! we saw people making props and the set and we got to watch the technical rehersal of hamlet (the opening night is in a few days time) I'm so excited about everything. It was amazing to see things being made, anndd there were like 3 people there who were ex students of my course. Working there full time! It was so cool.
Then I went to the freshers fair. Personally I thought it was really good but I know alot of other people didn't enjoy it. I got so much free stuff as well. Like an Urban Outfitters goodie bag which had a purse, washbag and some nai lvarnish in it. I love the purse. It's like black leather with flowers embroidered on it. What elese did I get...? Oh some free makeup (blue eye shaddow) and a que jump card for club Koko!! SWEET!
I actually have so much to say but I'm so tired.
I managed to get a return ticket home on the train for £7.60!!!!!!!!! This made me so happy yesterday! So I'll be home this Friday and then back on Saturday and I think Tasha is coming to stay on Saturday which will be good!
Tomorrow is the first freshers evening at Debut under London Bridge. I have a ticket but dont know if I can be arsed to go tbh. All my flat mates are going to the end of freshers party at Koko on sunday instead of tomorrow. meh oh well. dunmatter.

My goodies

And this is me being tired. Ha.
Oh yeah I nearly forgot... I joined the netball team... I wanted to join the cheerleading team but I was too embarassed and plus they were all really annoying and netball is fun and you kinda look like a cheerleader in the netball outfit........ I was good at netball in school.
Oh!!! and I forgot too.. I joined the life drawing society because its really cheap. £10 a term... It works out at £1 per session. Fuck yeah!

 Night all xOXOXOX x

Beugh. The last 2 days have been awful. Yesterday I had to finally say goodbye to my parents - which was horrid. My dad drove me and Rupert to the bus station in Oxford which is about a 20 minute drive from my house. I cried all the way there but I don't think neither my dad or Rupert noticed. I don't know what came over me at all... I don't think I even knew why I was crying. Anyways I got out of the car and my dad gives me the biggest hug and tells me to be careful etc... he left and Rupert and I waited for the coach to London. As soon as I got on the coach I just burst into tears and Rupert spent the rest of the journey trying to make me laugh - which was really nice.... he's very good at that. So then we got to my flat and we had a party for Rupert's birthday (which is today), and he went home today.
We spent most of today in bed watching the whole new series of Waterloo Road. It's sucha shit ridiculous program, but so addictive!! I walked Rupert to the tube station and then we spent about 15 min saying goodbye.... trying to leave... and failing... but eventually we left eachother successfully and it was just the biggest slap in the face ever. It was like the universe was like "HELLO! Look. You're alone now. In this HUGE city. BY YOURSELF." I camt back to my flat and just sat in my room and sulked. I have literally never ever felt this isolated. Even though there are all these fabulous people around me, and everyone is so lovely and kind and supportive of eachother - it still doesn't make me feel better. I went to the kitchen and a few of the girls were watching something on a laptop... I just made dinner and sat down, but I tryed so bloody hard to be upbeat... I don't think it worked though.
I think I've had a shit day because today was the day that it hit me. WTF am I doing in London? I LIVE here now. I moved out. No friends or family around... nothing. what?! Why am I doing this? I really don't understand my own thought process.
ajgakl Tomorrow is my first day and I'm bricking it.
I'm in the worst mood. I just want to be at home. With people who love me.
Argh.
x

Holga!

I got my pictures back from the developers and I'm quite pleased with them.... considering that I had no idea what I was doing and it was my first go. I learnt alot from it as well. Half the pictures I took didn't even come out but I think I know what I did wrong in all of them. I've scanned them in so here they are:

This was at Aldgate East tube station outside my halls in london.

This is my FAVOURITE. I didnt think this picture would come out because it was really dark and I used my fisheye lense. But I love it!

This was a complete accident.. I went to Manchester the week before I went out for dinner with Tasha and I forgot to wind the film on.. hah I like that we look like ghosts =] The next one down is from the Oxford fair but it came out really rubbish and yeah,,... probably my least favorite.

 An alleyway off Brick Lane in LDN where my halls are.

My favorite place in Oxford. The steeple of Exeter College and the Antony Gormley sculpture.




















Right, I'm off to sainsburys to buy wine.
Blog more tomorrow... I'm quite proud of myself.
XX

Morning

Hi guys. I'm in halls now and it's really nice =] I'm so pleased with my flat and actually the whole floor! We have fire escape doors at the end of each flat and theyre always open so its basically like one big flat Everyone is so lovely as well. I've heard some flats are really horrid and noone talks to anyone else in them. I suppose in that way I'm really lucky because we all get on so well. I'm a bit aprehensive about the fact that there are 9 girls and one boy on our floor.... Seeing as I'm not a very girly girl... and have more guy friends than girls.. I don't want to end up really ridiculously girly and gross. hahaha. I'm sure I wont though.
Rupert stayed with me on my first two nights and it was really fun. But I'm gunna be honest here - I was so glad to get the bed back all to myself!  Surprisingly I'm not really missing anyone yet... going for breakfast with Tasha and Mel on friday and it's the last time I'm gunna see them. Which SUCKS it's gunna be so weird after seeing them every few days for years. Thinking about it I've known Melissa for going on 9 years now!! and Tasha for nearly 4. Crazy... who am I going to moan to when I have a bad day?!

I really like this guys outfit.

I don't like the fact that those weird sheepskin coats are in atm. I just think they are sooooooooo gross. I really want... I dunno what theyre called but like a jock jacket? like a American high school jacket. SO BAD. but all the ones I've found are out of my price range.

Like this:

This girl is really hot huh?

I need to do something with my hair.. I'm so bored of it!!! I neeed to get extensions or SOMETHING. It's so dull! Gutted I couldn't go blonde.

I need to get dressed. I just remembered that maintainace are coming round to give me a new shower.... It seems to go everywhere but on me when I'm in it. Great one.

Also I'm meeting Orchid today which is very exciting!!

Hastas OX

OMGGGGGggg

I'M SO TOTALLY FUCKIN MISSING OUT ON EVERYTHING!!!!!
Someone from halls added me on facebook and they just put some pictures up and fmllllllllllllll it's been like 4 days and everyone is like best friends! I bet I'll get there and then everyone will already have their little cliques and I'll just be lonely.
This really annoys me, but then again I would rather spend the last few days I have with my boy and me favorite people in Oxford. and I'm living there for a whole year so I have plenty of time to find my kinda people.
Gross.
I'm so hungover. Last night was SICK. I had to say bye to Hawks today and it was sad =[
I've been craving meat all day. I had a bacon sandwich and then we went to GBK for lunch and I had the biggest, meatiest, motherfucker. It was so good!!!
Bye x

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So I've just come home from the pub with my boy. We sat and drank gin and talked/laughed about the world and our childhood for about 2 hours... now I'm sitting on my bed while he plays his keyboard and sings the most beautiful songs to me.
The thought of not living with him any more... being in a whole different city to him, not spending every spare minute every day with him is horrid.
Maybe I'm over reacting?
Bleugh. Sucks. Why can't he come with me to London instead of being pooey (by pooey I mean super smart) and going to Oxford.
OX

C4A1

My flat number.
It's actually pretty sweet here. My room looks really cosy and my flat mates.....well.... I met one of them - Adam and he is lovely. I tried to talk to the chinese girl but she didn't want to know. I seem to be missing the other 2. The girl from next door is well nice.. I don't really understand her dress sense... god knows where she got it from but she is lovely too. AND Lucy is directly 3 floors below me which is really nice!! concidering how big the building is I think were pretty close yay!
I have a MINT view as well and the kitchen view is even better!

I'm back home now but I really didn't want to leave yesterday. I met some people outside and had a ciggarette with them and they were so safe. I'm back a week today and I'm pretty sure this week will go well quick. (well, I hope).

XO

Tumblr

I now have tumblr... but don't worry blogspot... I wont desert you!!! I've had tumblr for 4 days and already have 4 random followers! Lovely! It's very pretentious though....

http://www.bloodredkisses.tumblr.com/

I liked my hair today:

Oh I’m soooooooo tired! I just woke up but I’m already knackered!! Yesterday was such a busy day!!! Bloody hell. I went to London TAAWWN to visit some exhibitions before uni starts so it didn’t look like I was complete bum over the summer. Then went to the private view/opening night of an exhibition by my old photography tutor. I was SO impressed. It was amazing. It was so strange seeing real prints which I had already seen in lectures. But as a collection it was amazing. I bought him a cigar to say congrats. Sounds strange… I will miss him a whole bunch. =[

I need to pack today… It’s starting to get scary now.
XO
P.S. Look at my luscious new camera from my parentals...

I want this real bad \/

OX

Oh Days

Hell hun, I'm moving a week tomorrow... today is my last day at work and boy has it gone quick!!!!
Fuck man, I'm feeling so weird! Starting to get sad now because it's my last day, and I've planned a day to see everyone for the last time.... it really feels like I'm leaving now. I have decided to buy a ring from the market. Infact - the shop opposite Fasta Pasta because then I will have a ring from Oxford and I will wear it all the time. I had to take all my pictures down the other day and I realised that half of the people up there weren't really in my life anymore. It's so strange how you think you're gunna be friends with people forever and you just fade from eachothers lives. Bleugh.
Pippa has come and gone... she was LOVELY. But it is quite freaky how similar we are.
I bought an exercise ball and bloody hell its painfull... I'm really into it though!
Ok so now that I'm starting uni and moving etc, blogs will be more frequent....I promise!
Because now I actually have things to blog about! Like moving in/freshers parties/etcetc.
IM SO EXCITED!!!!
WAh!

Ok so this is the best song atm. I'm so completely addicted to Fake Blood - It's unreal!



Ok so don't watch the video because it's one of those home made music (or should I say MUSIK) videos made by some bullied fat kid in his room.
The song is MINT though.

I have to go to work... I will be late now.. fuck.
CYA x