SO

Here are the converse and some pictures from yday.
It was so much fun, and such a nice break from work... even though I was working ha.
Erika and Carmen were so good. I made them run around port meadow in minus temperatures, and small dresses and all through the floods and everything. Thank you girls! x
Converse \/ although they are filthy after I wore them to port meadow yesterday.

And here are some pics from yesterday

Enjoy.

I have to work now. Gay.

OMG ONE WEEK TODAY. Excited much!! xxoo

I'm Scared Of The Silence Because It Speaks The Truth

Wow. Today has been good and bad.
I have so much to post!! But NO time whatsoever. With Hertfordshire on Wednesday and Westminster on Friday I have so much portfolio work to do. I'm getting so stressy. SO stressy... I don't think Rupert appreciates this haha but he is being LOVELY and paitent with me.... which helps alot! =]
I finished my converse last week but am yet to take pictures of them... maybe tomorrow I'll post them. I wore them to college and my feet hurt like hell.... so I'll have to fix that issue...

Other news... doing a massive photo shoot with erika tomorrow. I'm really excited! I just this minute finished the dress she will be wearing after working on it all day. Its based on the Dolce and Gabbana Collection of 2008.

I really think we will get some right good pics.... will post them tomorrow too.

In the mean time, I have to get back to work.... and should really porbably give my boyfriend some attention hah =]

Here is some pics from the Mad Hatter project we had at college

I'm getting bloody stress spots too... spots of stress...

Definitely. Not. Cool.

Hasta x

Today Is a Shit Day.

Today I feel like shit, Rupert is poorly too and everything is just so stressful.
Today I saw Lucy, Melissa and James' E-portfolios. Fuck ME. It makes me want to cry...everyone is so good and I'm just... not. I'm so not getting into university. I feel about this big...\/
.   < that big

I left college early because like hell was I going to draw a mountain of cardboard boxes for 5 hours. I'm gunna get lots of work done now. Go over my portfolio and.... make it good.
owwwwwwwwwwww I feel so shitt!!!
I just checked my email and I have an interview at Westminster 2 days after Hertfordshire.... They want me to do a 7 - 10 minute presentation on my work....but get this... they want TWENTY. FIVE. Images. I don't have 25 pictures!!! OhMyGod. I might just die of worry and stress and..... stuff.
I want Rupert to come home now. NOW. So he can give me a hug.

*sigh* x

There's A Place Downtown Where The Freaks All Come Around. It's A Hole In The Wall, It's A Dirty Free-for-all

Hooray for Sunday =]
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 2 weeks today and I will be in sunny sunny Morocco =] I'M SO EXCITED..... andddd 3 weeks today and Rupert moves in! YAY! I'm SO excited about the next 3 weeks.... but not so much about my uni interview.... I'm shit scared! It will be fine... I just have to try and not get RAPED tomorrow when I do my portfolio thing.
I'm SO addicted to the gym!! but I suppose it's a good thing to be addicted to right? It gives me so much energy and makes me so hyper as well!
I haven't really done anything since the last post... we went out last night for dinner and then met Ollie in his room at St Peters.... it was the night of his bop so he invited us to his friends room a few floors up and there were about 10 people in a cubbord-sized room... I have never been in a room full of so many fakely "original" and "kooky people in my life. Eugh. I hate the majority of Oxford students. Nearly all of the ones I have met just irritate the hell out of me!
I have decided that my laptop is suicidal.... either that or it hates me. I've only had it for 11 months and its  turned into a piece of shit. I want a macbook. I NEED a macbook for uni anyway... If only I could afford one. If I get the job at shakeaways then I will be so happy!! Although, I'm annoyed that they fired my friend Emma.  If I do get the job, it would have been nice to work with her =[
I feel so stupid! since last weekend I had planned to visit Orchid this Saturday (yesterday) and I completely forgot!!! I mean, I don't feel bad for letting Orchid down...she didn't even know I was coming... I'm annoyed out of pure selfishness... I want to seee heerrrr =[
Rupert is doing his motorbike test again today... after he failed last weekend! But I think he will pass today =] He is alot more confident today.
I still need to stud my shoes! I think I will do that today =] ... Instead of working ha!
I've had a really good couple of days =] For the first time in ages I actually feel relaxed... and I just looooveeee coming home from work and just chilling out with the boy... singing silly songs and watching crap telly and cooking together.... It's so perfect <3

My laptop is really agrovating me.

BigLove XO

So not at all skiving college today then...ha.
The Shakeaway interview went well this morning...they were really nice and they for some reason found me hilarious... Is that a good thing? I hope so. They are going to call me on tuesday and let me know if I got the job or not =]
I FINALLY have an interview for a university! Its for my backup choice...Model Making and Special Effects at Hertfordshire. I REALLY don't want to go there but its better to be safe than sorry and all that jazz. The interview is on the 3rd of febuary which is SO SOON! and I'm really nervous!
...Its in Hatfield.... lolatronic.
I joined the gym today (only because they've got new doors now where you have to swipe your gym card to get it...I used to pay for swimming and then sneek into the gym instead) I managed to get out of paying for an induction tho! I told them that I had one 2 years ago (knowing full well that the management and the computer systems changed a year ago and they probably wouldn't have the old records) and it worked! win =]
I'm gunna go later today and have lots of cardio-vascular fun....after I've made a playlist=]
XO

My Noodles

Were freaking awesome.

I put them in a wrap.

x

So. Much. Gin.

SOMUCHGIN.
You can guess how I'm feeling today. I had to get up at 7 as well, to take Rupert to his CBT test =] exciting! Although, there is a reason as to why this bike place in Blackbird Leys is like 100 quid cheaper than the recomended motorbike testing place..... We rocked up to the greyhound stadum *lol* in Bez and literally the test place is 2 dirty porter cabins and an empty, litter-strewn car park....It looked like they were the type of gumruggers to steal Ruperts £100, knock him out and steal his kidneys while he's still alive.
It looks like love is in the air for alot of people this week...I hope it all works out for everyone because everyone needs a boy/girlfriend =]

Watching The Simple Life. haha so funny, I LOVE them hahahaha. "Great, I just killed a moth with my Channel. Totally un-funny." Every time I watch it I'm reminded of Orchid <3 Also, totally loving Ke$ha atm. She's so pretty! and witty, which is unusuall for beautiful pop singers nowadays. Annndddd Marina and The Diamonds! loves it.

Can't wait for my day of being by myself =] I will spend it being arty....tbh I'll probably end up cleaning the house... I'm so old! Thats literally what I do for fun in my spare time... Oh andddd the Eastenders omlibus. Woopwoop. And NOODLES.

Yeahhhhhh what a good idea!!!! NOODLES!!!! FTW!

NOODLESNOODLES yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!

=] I'm so excited for my noodles now! To make them EVEN BETTER I will eat them....get this....DURING the Eastenders omlibus.....Fuck yeah!

XO

My House Is So Cold!! XD

I just got home and my house is freezzzinngggg!!! I checked the heating thing and it appears to have turned itself off at 10.42. =[[[ SO COLD!
I left my phone at home this morning, so when I got back I was eager to check it (I'm a text addict)... I could hear it ringing as I opened the door and there it was buzzing away annddd whooo was it?! It was Shakeaways! Letting me know that I have a job interview on thursday =] weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... I hope I get it because holey moley do I need money! Use all your eyelash wishes on me =] Omg my head hurts so much! I've had a hedache all day =[ and I've promised Rupert that I would go to the gym with him tonight.....I was really really up for it untill I got home and was -forced- into bed to warm up and now..... =[ no. I just need sleep.

Insane in the membrane, and not in a good way.

Secret Diary of a Call Girl is back on on the 28th. Just saw the advert WIN

XO

Oh man, today has been an enraging day! Firstly I wake up really late and find out that college was actually open. Fail. Stayed at home anyway. I looked like death - which is never good and then my mum made me go food shopping with her. While in Sainsburys, I got a call from the police LOL. They were really nice but it turns out that the policeman who was at my crash misled me. He told me that that was it... all I would have to do was sort out insurance. Oh no no no. The policeman on the phone was very abrupt and gave me 2 choices.
1. Pay £200 to go on a two day driving safety course, or...
2. Recieve a summons, pay £500, go to court, get convicted and have 3 points on my licence for dangerous driving.

DANGEROUS FUCKING DRIVING?! I GOT HIT BY A FUCKING TAXI YOU KNOBBER.
*Breathe*

Two. Hundred. Pounds. TO DO MORE DRIVING LESSONS.
For Jesus' sake! So I was really annoyed...and you know how it's never a good idea to be negitive to the police in any way...right? so I'm like..."yeah, of course, I understand, I'll *happily* do the driving course...no!! no problem!! thank you so much for calling!!!" ha. ha. =| stupid fucktard.
Then my mum buys me doughnuts and I feel a bit better,... I come home, and call the sports centre (because me and Rupert want to join their martial arts defense class - or whatever its called) and the woman. Oh my god. She's just the rudest person in the world!! "do you have a phone number for the organisation, because I can't find one".."well, I'm LOOKING for YOU NOW...*sigh*"...."well, all I need to know is if you need to be a member...?"..."NO. *silence*...you dont have to be a member!!"...
It doesn't really translate into blog form, as you can't show tones of voice...but you know what I mean...
In my head I imagined her to be the type of woman who has been in the papers recently.... you know, those chavvy, a-bit-too-large-to-be-wearing-that, "I'm dressed like its a million degrees but actually I'm really drunk and its snowing" - those kinda girls....the really stupid ones that are basically naked, coming out of clubs at 3am in -2 degrees. Parading around like some kind of exotic sheep at a farmer's market.

Sheep is a funny word.

So today has added nicely to the running mood of the last few weeks,...still no money, still no job, still no UCAS, still nothing to work towards etc.

However! I am currently bidding on a pair of black converse on ebay.. I'm gunna buy some studs and stud them up! =] so they look like this...

Somehow, I don't think they will end up like this /\ but I shall try =] and I'll post the result when I do it =]

Orchid Vishkaiy, I miss you, I love you, come home, be mine, I shall take care of you "A La Fritzel" =] xxxxxxxxxx

XO

My College Is Closed

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
This is just what I needed. Last night I had a -slight- emotion and mental breakdown. Oh boy. Hate it when that happens... I knew it was coming though... was feeling it all day. This ment that obviously I didn't want to go to college. But I woke up and it was closed!
Yesterday when I woke up it felt like I was in some strange parallel universe of time. It didn't feel like 5am...or 9am.... it just felt early. It was so horrible and I hate driving to somewhere knowing I'm going to be late... and I was. Anyway, my seven hour sculpture lesson was so. boring. at first it was really satisfying and I loved it but as the day went on I got bored, realised that my piece was a pile of poop and then when I had to vacume form it... jesus. I just wanted to smash it and because I was like 2 steps infront of everyone else, I had no idea what I was doing. meh. Next tuesday will be better =|
I'm so excited about Morocco =] its in like 3 and a half weeks!! aaaaa!!! how exciting! I honestly don't even care about the "diverse range of work we will have for our portfolios" I JUST WANT TO SHOP. Its so cheep! and there are so many markets!!!!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee shopping!! Melissa, Me and Chris will have a blast!!! and thennnnnnnnnn Carmen, Robbie, Erika, Rupert, Mia, Me (and 3 more undecided people) are booking a villa in Costa Blanca for a week and its only £155 for a 10 man villa, with 2 balconys and a pool, next to a bar and the beach and with flights!!! Wah. So exciting!!
I have to go meet Carmen and Erika for coffee now... I feel like I'm talking shit as well.
Hasta, x

I...? Um....

I'm really confused...

My Dad just decided that Rupert is moving in. I knew he was thinking about it but I didn't actually think it would happen. Fuck me. I'm really excited but also really scared. I don't want to be really like, in eachothers faces all the time. I mean, everything is moving so quickly. And even though I want to spend every minute with him I'm still completely one of those people who needs lots of space. I'm SO excited but it's so scary! In the last 3 months its gone from seeing eachother every once or twice a week to every single day. I mean... he moved 50 odd miles to live in Oxford and be with me. Now he's moving in! I think the way to describe my state now is shocked tbh.

Shit boi. Maybe this is serious....

No college today which suits me fine... my Dad wouldn't let me drive.. which is crazy because we live in the center of town... not in a valley in wales, and I drove twice yesterday. My head still hurts from the incident with the lamp post. Still....SHAME.

Wikkiwikkiwooo

I need to get out... I'm getting cabin feaver...

Loves x

Gay.
Excited.
Sleepy.
Skiver.
Love.
Gay.
Blah.
Bed.

I have a new favorite photographer... Eugenio Recuenco.
Bloody. Amazing.

I'm so tired.... my daddy says I'm not allowed to go to college tomorrow... shame...

^.^

XO

Simpsons movie, chocolate, boy, done.

Would blog more but Rupert is biting me because he is hungry....

OM NOM NOM

<3

Right. I hurt head to toe. Because of the STUPID fucking ice and my STUPID  gorgeous boots I fell over yesterday in town infront of the whole of Jamie's resturant and not only did I fall over. But I fell over INTO A LAMPOST, hitting my head and revealing my knickers to the whole of Oxford. I woke up this morning and I'm just in so much pain. It's shit.
Still no news from UCAS. Still no job.
NOTHING.
Yesterday was a real low point. I was in the worst mood ever and I still am tbh. Just need a job and something to work towards *cough* Hurry up UCAS!! I did about 500 words of my essay and I'm soooo boredddd. But I really like how easy I'm finding it. Makes me feel smart.
I've found this course which is what I want to do at uni but in a year an a half with intensive training,... the only thing is tho...is that its £22000 to do it. I can't even get my head around how much money that is. Goddamn. It looks really good too. Meh.
The boy gets home from work in 2 hours and I only just got up. Goodstuff. My hair needs doing so baddddddd!! It's grown loads tho =] Score!
Things to do:
>Stop faffing about
>Finish the review
>Be more positive
>Go to the gym

*sigh*

Getting out of bed would be a start...

XO

Some pictures I found from an exhibition I went to about a month ago

XO

In All My Days...

I have never seen this much snow. At least not in Oxford! We were predicted 40cm on monday and no one believed it would happen. But sure enough, an hour later there was a motherfucking blizzard. Now theres about a foot and a bit of snow, everyone is stranded, national weather warning, no trains or busses, college is shut (lets pray its shut tomorrow so i don' have to hand in my essay) and its currently -5 outside. Aparently it will be like this for 15 days! Crazy! But yesterday was loads of fun! I met the girls in town and then we frolicked about in the snow for a while in town, then went to Port Meadow and met the boys, walked on the ice, stroked the horses and drank wine. Then we went to The Jerico Tavern to warm up and drink cider and have epic snow fights in the small windey allys of Jerico. It was fab =] Then is was time to go home and get into bed and watch Come Dine With Me =] Weeeee lovely day =] College is closed again today. Thank God. I need to write my review =[ which is going to be so hard because I literally have no opinion on Anish Kapoor. Gah.
Maybe today I will do some charity shopping... or some DIY....

There are freaking icicles on my roof! XO

Memories Will Fade When You Want Them To

Ah! The last few days have been quite lovely (apart from the slight fail on new years, not sleeping last night and the realisation of just how much work I have to do).
On NYE Rupert and I went to the Lon of Don only to find that all our friends had failed us... everyone was late, not picking up their phones or just being gay and not coming so we sat on Marble Arch (not actually ON Marble Arch - that would have been really cool!) and drank untill about 9pm then decided we would give it another half an hour then go home but then! we got a call from alex =] and we went to harriets flat (which actually was basically ON Marble Arch) chilled for a bit then went to the pub... at about 4am Rupert and I decided to go home and waited for the coach....where I, in my drunkeness, got really angry because the last seats on the Oxford coach were taken up by some French tourists and I went MENTAL I was screaming at them nad everything... aparently it was really funny but sooooooooo embarrasing. Oh God! I can imagine. CRINGEEEEE.
Blahhhhh
Anyway, the next day we just stayed in bed all day and lounged around then on Saturday I went down to Mahogany to see Rupert and get my fringe cut and they asked me to model for the catalogue =] it's at the begining of Febuary and I'm not allowed to cut or colour my hair untill then. Ahhhhhhh thats a big ask. A whole month without changing my hair. Fuck. But so exciting!!

Ive decided to pierce something...maybe my lip but I duno I think it might ruin my face so I might go for tounge instead =] I think so yes. If Tiger Lilly is open tomorrow after I finish college then I'll do it then...if not on friday =]

Today was the first day back at college and I am SO proud of myself! I managed to to the whole holiday project in a day and a half... even if I only got 5 hours sleep last night and I didnt finish untill 2.30am ha! AND my mum says she wants to buy it off me to put in our living room... what I did was a series of pictures based on how well I remember the memories captured in the image. Basically I poured lots of bleach on everything and made it look arty and it actually turned out alright =] I'll try and scan one of them in (theres 12 in total) but being at college today was so just... argh. So eye opening. Because people are already starting to get interviews and I just have so. Much. to do. Otherwise I wont get in. Shit. So today I went out and bought some things and I'm going to to extra work and also just generally make my work better because I really want to get into Wimbledon..... and secretly..... I now REALLY want to get into the fashion photography course at London College of Fashion. But I'm not telling anyone that because I slated it loads before I realised I actually DID have the entry requirements... OMG I REALLY WANT THAT COURSE. I want I want I want. Godamn!
(Also, assessment next Monday and London exhibition day this Wednesday - aahhh!!)

ANYWAY KIDS, I'm shattered. And I NEED A JOB.... I'ts gotten to the point where I have NO money. No. Money. Wahhhhh. I'm so stressed out but im really happy and have a fantastic bf who I've been ignoring for thE last day or so because I've been doing work - I'm sorry babe =[

Keep sexy, and lets wish for snow! ^.^ XO